Wandering on purpose

HONESTLY.

I have an INSANE dream/desire... something I have always dreamed I would accomplish. Something that is preoccupying my thoughts (as it does often in the summer/post summer). It's kinda ridiculous... but a dream none the less. I've dreamed about it for years and years... I even have it near the top of my "life list". It's not a secret, although I don't talk about it too often.

I have a crazy dream.

Problematically it just so happens that I have the distinct possibility of making said dream come true in the spring... or at least giving it a shot....

And I am FREAKING SCARED TO DEATH... I am also very, very afraid that I am not going to make it happen for the sole reason that I am scared.

I am dumb.

Seriously... when have I ever been scared to "jump"? What the heck is wrong with me? I'm freakin out!!!!!!