Wandering on purpose

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y'ALL!

Sorry... that's all I got today, but its been a while so I thought I should say something... I know... such an original thing to say!

I am off to get ready for the family service at church... I am trying to embrace this evening... it's Christmas eve... its one of my favorite times of the whole year... that hour in between the 8:30 and 11 pm services... sitting with friends... embracing the Christmas moments. I am sure that it is somehow connected to the love I have for the quiet moments of the Easter prayer vigil. Quiet... slow... not about anything spectacular or flashy... not about my family or my sister or decorations or some "show" we are putting on. For an hour Kim, Darryl, and I will eat blueberry pancakes in the kitchen at the church and think about the beauty of Christmas and friendship.

Today I am having a hard day... its actually been more than a few in a row. I want to be positive and happy and embrace Christmas this year... but instead I am angry and hurt and frustrated.

I want to embrace the "gospel in miniature" (hee hee hee Kim!), but today I don't know if I have it in me. I don't want today to be about ME... I want it to be all about the birth of Christ. It would be my prayer that tonight be not about any of us... that it be simply about simplicity and living a life of passion...

MERRY CHRISTMAS Y'ALL.