Dissilusioned

This week I am supposed to be on vacation, finishing (or should I say STARTING) a grad class I need to renew my teaching certificate. Instead I have found myself at work every afternoon (few mornings I admit... but HEY I don't get to work many mornings when I am NOT on vacation!).... so very much to do... so very little time... really, what made me think that with rummage sales, Dragons games, campouts, VBS, family parties, mission trips, and all the other weekly stuff coming I could afford a week off, I am not sure... but none the less... not so much on the vacation this time around!!

ANYWAY. I heard some news today that made me feel very dissilusioned about what I do and the organization I work for. Now, don't get me wrong there... I dearly love my job (most days), I am passionate about what I do and I think that the organization I work for is an AMAZING group, capable of AMAZING things, and doing AMAZING good. (boy, do you think I think its AMAZING?!). Yet today decisions were made and PEOPLE will suffer... and I hate that. I hate that we get so caught up in wordings and politics and not wanting to take a stand or cause a scene that we forget that PEOPLE are suffering... and our decision AND indecision separates people from Christ.

ARGH. Today I am dissilussioned. I could go on and on, but I won't. I am annoyed, but more than that, my heart hurts for those this organization has very intentionally hurt and alienated. My heart hurts because I am not sure that there is any change my pitiful little voice can make. My heart hurts because I don't want to stand by while people are suffering.... I need to be part of a solution.